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Tuesday, May 29, 20124:14 PM

Regrets. those are one of the many things in life that can make people feel like shit. And damn, i got a great many of those. Gah, i realised my life is so full of negatives and i'm like a mean complaining machine. whatever.

yeah, i may regret this in time to come IF my pesky employer runs an online check on me, to see my beautiful and impressive use of 'vocab' but whatever, i'm young, pesky and wild. Just let me get this out.

REGRET #1 (FUCKING HUGE)

being president of fucking HO

mygod, the entire process was HELL. i can't even tell you how much time and effort i put in. How much emotional turmoil i went through. Yeah, i'm weak. emotionally. Thats exactly why i shouldn't have gotten the position. They had better choices, why not them? why me? god, if only i could smash that fucking cup that sealed my fate about a year ago. would you give me back all my time and effort?

It spoiled my relations with my juniors. It made CCA seem like pure torture. It took up almost all of time for studying. the most obvious effect was of course my academic achievements. I was nearly a straight A student before i took over, scoring and L1R5 of 8. which still presentable. and afterwards? the score doubled. damnit, i was shocked. and thats when i knew i had to start pulling up my socks. and amongst all that " push the fucking cca to greater heights" with virtually NO HELP FROM THE TEACHER.

okay, i was on the verge of snapping then. and then i did. Because the juniors couldn't listen. maybe a defect in their brain during pregnacy. impairment of the use of a certain part of the brain, the part which controls all the social etiquette and social behaviour or whatnot. They jumped the hierarchy, and got the leaders into SHIT. the fucking chalet was now cancelled. man, i cried. the very first time i did in front of people.
they just simply cant spare a thought for the seniors can they? the chalet is a tradition, to thank the seniors for their work, their contributions, their guidance. my god, i can't believe their so childish and absolutely no sense of gratefulness. DO YOU KNOW HOW FUCKING MUCH I WENT THROUGH TO GET THE CHALET BACK AFTER YOU GUYS FUCKED US UP??? no, you simply can't. retribution is near my friends.

Yes, i hear there's word that they may not be chalet this year. Its fine, i wouldnt go even if you'd beg me too. Yes, i hate juniors.(generally)

well, the chalet's one major event. and plenty of little things. like- let me emphasize- getting ABSOLUTELY NO HELP from the TEACHER. and also, BOMBING us with CONCERTS. erm hello? in case you haven't noticed, i'm not god, not some superwoman? and after today, I can safely say that i hate him, really hardcore devilish HATE HIM, to the very core. he doesnt deserve to be called a teacher.

WHY? he's irresponsible, he's dumb, he's a procrastinator and he's corrupted. when i say corrupted i dont mean financially. i meant he's fucking biased, and if he doesnt like you refuses to acknowledge any achievements or contributions you've made, and even forgets your name after 3 months?

he requested for me to do LEAPS report for him. fine, even though is fucking his job. I specifically told him (with witness around me) that day, i didnt think some ppl deserved their points and wanted to omit their scores. he say okay. so i didnt key it in. and today, when the reports came out. hoho, THEY GOT 2 FUCKING YEARS WORTH OF POINTS and I GOT ONLY 1 YEAR. hoho, they did NOTHING and got more points than me??????? HOHOHO i'm starting to believe in santa now.

words can't describe what i'm about to do/say/scream/cry.

FUCK HIM OKAY. FUCKING BALD BALL OF FLESH, LIMPING FUCKER. HE DERSERVES TO DIE UNDER A ROCK AND MORE. POUR ACID ON HIM, THEN ALKALI AND SLOWLY LIGHT HIM ON FIRE. THE MIX THE ASHES IN WATER AND LET THE PIGS DRINK IT. fucking coward. i've never seen a man guilty of more cowardice than you.

i hope, you people read this.

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Friday, December 2, 20118:27 PM

WOAH. its been 5 years already... My life has changed so much

MAde plenty new friends, learnt many lessons,

had much more responsibility.

Its actually kinda sad when you look back and se the events that happened years ago.

Like the recent HO farewell 2011 chalet,3D2N, just ended ytd,

man, was damn busy and everything was a freaking rush.

but whatever it was still super fun :D

I'll try to recount the entire stay there :D

1st day:

woke up at 7am when i was supposed to wake up at 8. LOL

too kanchiong aldr.

played with my brother's galaxy tab for abit then when on the comp.

when i was done it was like 9.30 :X hehe, i intended to go to my ahma house at 10

to cook potatoes and ham and cut vege for a salad for the chalet :X
nvm, since i thought it was quite early still.

Went to bathe and pack and everything ended up reaching ahma house only at 10.30

hehe. Then cook potatoes, skin them, cut them and burnt my thumb LOL.

then boil the ham. until got the revolting dead meat smell ._.

digusting... its budget ham anyway, super smelly.

Ahma scolded me and told me i would never be able to open a restaurant, HAHA.

doesn't matter, i'm a talanted person :D HEHEHE.

Finished everything at 12.30.

then lazed around waiting for Jane to get ready.

then at 2.45 went down with 1 bag of salad, 1 bag of aluminium tray and 1 bag of oreo,renodo and a backpack to flag a taxi.

went to tampines mart to wait for jane, late somemore!

still scold me! anyway then boarded taxi and

then set off towards aranda country club! :D
full of anticipation on the ride LOL. stupid jane keep talking and talking.

non-stop one, sometimes really can' stand her ._.

Reached aranda chalet, the twins reached before us LOL :X
super on time siol. The only nice guys in the whole HO -.-

okay maybe jc is nice too...

they had cooked fried rice and nuggets :)

damn, nice siol the rice. hehe

then waited for michelle and zijia who had the spagetti and uh jelly :)

at the lobby, met her father, and he passed us the keys first, so we went to room 2222.

on the 3rd floor -.- haiyo. exact same room as last year :D

stupid door got problem, spent like 10mins trying to unlock it LOL.

finally done and got someone up to fix the lock.

then sat ang unpack, rested for abit.

Justin and Jarett spamming tap tap.

then me and jane went down to help michelle and zi jia

lug the food and everything else up.

wah damn gao lat. super heavy.

opened the door sat and unpacked, arrange somemore.

then the my juniors came :D

ruiqi, chev, dora.

LOL, they went bowling first i think.

nice life horh.

then we gathered in a room with the twins played murderer. LOL

lights out. hehe. quite fun lah, but not as fun as last year :D

then bass, horn juniors came, they joined us with a game of murderer too.

then like super alot of people playing. maybe 12?

O.O then playplay play.

Xueyi, jingyi and robyn came. and they joined too.

now the bed was damn crowded. and that stupid jane ah, keep squirming around LOL

then got once we squezeed at the same time. LOL stupid, everything seems to happen with her only.

hehe, then played somemore and then went out to get ready for dinner at 7?

called the seniors, spammed the seniors with food >:D

crazy siol, their plates were like piled like mountains.

but i think everybody finished everything. except one or two :D
so not bad, we estimated quite nicely.

okayokay, maybe jane got more gong lao on this :)

but then horh, my salad nobody eat, except a few :( sad...

nvm, they're all unhealthy people :D

then time for our dinner. ate quite sastifactorily.

hehe, put the washing one side and went in the room to play bridge and taiti

all that. then had the gift exchange... blahblah...

eeyer, i do the cap so long cheeshuen don't like.

HAHA, but then they made her wear it and spammed photos :D

with her wearing a cheeze shirt too :D

hehe then section time. HAHAHAHA made

jingyi and robyn wear the cutesy knee high socks and do catwalk :D
HAHAHAHAHA, robyn looked super cute!!! jingyi looked abit weird HAHAHA

then took section photos again and then played cards.

later more people left then we joined the ergao seniors with a round of

werewolf. HAHAHA. okay that was fun.

I keep kenaing the werewolf. then got people keep accusing me.

HAHAHAHAHA. damn sad, out of all the times i only kena the little girl once :X

i think sokchin and xueyi keep getting the witch and guardian thingy HAHA.

cause i keep peeping :D

there was, siewchen(ancient), guihui, irene, jiahuan, xueyi, sokchin, robyn, jingyi,

jane,michelle,ruiqi and me. chev went home first cause she was sick.

poor thing, every year sick one.

anyway, they was 3 werewolfs, 1 guardian, 1 wizard, 1cupid, 1 little girl, 1 vampire and 2 normals. then of course one person was the narator :D

playedplayed until 11 plus then jingyi and robyn, xueyi and jiahuan went back :(

then zijia joined us :)

then the game changed abit, they removed the normals cause abit useless

and added 1 fortune teller that can choose to see the cards of any person per round.

hehe, game got heated, but i still stayed werewolf every round LOL.

sad. then we dunno played till what time then stopped for food break.

HAHAHA, i think jane started it. also because of zijia's jelly i think.

then ruiqi went home. me, jane and michelle sent her off.

1st night, 2nd day wee hours?:

then went back and chatted, ate, cleared up abit and watched

unbeatable banzuki. by the time i think was like 2am?

then went to bathe, put on lotions all that.

then we nuaed on the bed and watched a supposedly "ghost movie"

on michelle's laptop. LOL. zi jia was busy doing her chem homework.

budden i think we kept laughing and disturbing her :X
oops. hehe end up all 4 of us were lying on the bed in front of the lappy

under the blanket and laughing the the show. LOL

siewchen scared us and said we were watching a horror show in front of the mirror :X

man, i think that scared us quite abit. Hehe.

then irene and sokchin went out to get some food.

jane and zi jia ordered cup noodles, boiled some water all that.

then i ate the renodo waffle sticks. wah, heavenly ...

anyway the stupid movie hanged and then we switched to some comedy stuff.

but was damn boring... so we went to the other room, pushed the beds,

take out blankets and argued about sleeping positions LOL.

end up we slept horizontally on the uneven single beds LOL

zijia slept under the lamp and i slept beside her.

then jane beside me and michelle beside her.

ma and zijia slept first and stupid michelle

went to take my unglam :(

then i dunno what was happening while i slept LOL

apparently quite alot. cause jane and michelle kept complaining after they woke up.

HAHAHAHA, me and zijia were damn peaceful :D

but i think she knocked her head on the lamp after she woke up HAHAHA.

zijia and michelle woke up at 7 plus and woke me and Jane up too

LOL. but we went back to sleep.

then woke up at 10 plus :D by then i think the seniors were awake too.

then we washed up. and went for "brunch" at burger king e!hub.

saw siok there for her CMazing race LOL.

k, more on 2nd day tmr.

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Saturday, October 15, 201111:39 PM

k, sorry. Got damn carried away.
haix

I really need the strength to carry on now.
First time i cried out of pure exhaustion and weariness ytd night.
Some times i really can't take it.
So i've turned to habbo now to play off my worries.
pathetic much yeah.
I feel bad bothering my friends for the same problems.
Not like they will fully understand anyway.
oh well,
i'm trapped in a time vortex.
can't get out. LALALA

i shall attempt to do a poem.
catch ya later.

charlotte

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11:21 PM

holy.... Time freaking flies man.
Sec3 is coming to an end already... and to think that i started blogging in pri 5.
HAHAHAHA, 3-4 years has passed aldr. gah.
Time's a bitch.

I'm really feeling the stress now,
even though i'm in double science and all...
Bio, chem, history, elective literature, S.S, english, HCL, emath, amath.
da fuck, enough to drive a sane person bonkers yeah.
Plus responsibilities in CCA.
dang, how do the seniors even do this?
why did they even choose me?
what do i have? No qualifications. No accomplishment. Nothing at all.
seriously, why?

Feel damn fucking inferior to the other leaders,
had mini olympics ytd, fucking put us with basketball on captain's ball.
then you fucking tell me is by lots.
Are you sure we are so fucking miserably suay for so many years?
does drawing lots make it more fair?
i aldr have a handicapp, half of my team comprises of sec2s.
what the fuck do you want?
To make matters worse, they look down on us.
they don't even play.
why? seriously.
don't we put in as much effort as any other cca does?
is it the seniors' fault if we have fucking low IQ and EQ juniors?
Its not fucking my job to teach them values.
Don't fucking judge us by some people from a CCA.

I don't get why we don't deserve regconition.
we're good.
YOU JUST DON'T GIVE US THE CHANCE TO PROVE OURSELVES.
you wanna listen to a tape?
by all means.
i gurantee you, you will never see us in the same light ever again.

BLOODY FUCKERS. I HATE YOU ALL.
yeah, hate is a fucking strong word.

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T.H.E.C.A.M.P

Wednesday, May 25, 20115:54 PM

anyway you want it, that's the way you need it~

Leadership camp was freaking awesome!!!! :D <3
like totally!!! hahahahahahaha!! really learnt many things during that 3days - short but definitely fruitful :)

Day1:
Met jamie and xinying at bedok point at 11 first before reporting to school. Xinying was lateeeee! hehe, i was too actually, but earlier than her! bought a cup of gong cha and sat there chatting with jamie to while away the time :) I think i took up excessive no. of seats. HAHAHA had 3 bags with me :X
freaking heavy! anyway, xinying came and we went to yoshinoya for brunch! :D and the janejane ahhhhh came with sharlyn. Bloody bloated after the meal man, so much rice.....
wanted to go shengshiong for sweets but realised that we were going to be late aldr :X the irony man, -meeting at 11 and being late for something that starts at 2 -____-
zo zoopid.
ran to MRT and bought sweets at tanahmerah's 7/11 and proceeded to hike up that horrendous hill to ahs. Bloody hot can!~ I'm aldr dark enough phank you >_> i don't need anymore melamine or i'll blend in at night aldr.
thought it started at 2.30 but it was actually 2 :X
half-ran half-walked under the bloody sun and finally made it in time! WALAO.
checked in.
I'M IN ACHILLES!
yeeeeeehaaa! same as xinying! :D
hehehe.at first i thought my group would suck
cause all of us like damn dead and we don't know each other at all :X
or not close... I think even the group I/C(weilin) was like ._.
" i think my group will be screwed" You all so dead one.
LOL, i can't deny it.
But it didn't turn out so bad did it? :)
I admit i was damn low and dead during the first 3/4
of the amazing race in day3 luh, but cause i was getting kinda irritated by certain things. not to be mentioned here.
Anyway, we proceeded with icebreaker games that did actually break the ice between us but not enough. And then came the group cheer and 下一站幸福( which is actually station games)

Achilles like chilli!
so hot and sexy!
just like....
Kenzi!!!!

heh, abit lame uh. BUT ENTERTAINING RIGHT?!? RIGHT?!!?
hahahaha, i really gotta admit, the station games were really damn innovative and fun! :D something different from what we have always done! HAHA i really honestly, truthfully salute the facilitators from the bottom of my heart. Can see that they really went to great lengths just to perfect this awesome camp :) sorry if i showed that i didn't appreciate the camp and their effort esp to weilin :X and danielle. I think she's angry with me...
BUT I THINK THAT THE TIME WE REALLY BONDED OVER WAS THE NIGHTGAMES!!!!!!!
OMG!!!!! BLOODY COOL! AND FUN! AND SCAREYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!
The school looked and felt freaking eery at night! mygod, everywhere was like pitch black and the seniors were like scaring us at any chance they had :(
I rmbed the first station i had to take some stupid slime thingy that was actually cornstarch+flour+water -______- while blindfolded. gross and dumb
Second station was first level of tower hall where a girl sat on the stage and screamed at us to run and hide that somebody will come to get us :O LOLLLL, we didn't know whether to listen to her anot. HAHAHAHA she ended up shouting at us like 3,4 times? then the stationmaster told us to hide under the whole row of tables in the hall. Then say what don't make noise, the more noise you make the angrier the person on stage gets :O LOL we were supposed to be found as quickly as possible and that kenzi went to hide BEHIND THE BLOODY CURTAIN -____________- and we ended up failing that station T.T haiz, nvm. anyway there were like two other extra people, one girl one guy hiding under the tables. LOL damn scary.
The third station was touch the guy then run away while holding hands LOLLLL. Farking funny luh! HAHAHAHAHA and poor guy got hit on the head and kicked by jeshua. We tried just holding hands normally, one girl, one guy like that interval since our group just nice 5 girls, 5 guys but failed LOL. the hands kept slipping.
The tried the two fastest runners at the ends and we had to interlock fingers :X....
but in the end managed to accomphlised luh :D
Then i think go back tower hall second floor :( really damn scary lorh... must boygirl pair up and enter pair by pair into this scary darka and black room to find some stupid clue that is a paper and i'm blindfolded....with chuyan leading and i think he was equally freaked out LOL. Got this vjc guy go tickle my leg T.T i can see his yellow shirt in the dark! and the ghost screamed at us :X creepy. i heard other people got people pulling the blindfolded person and saying can i have her? LOLLLL
I think the next is spooky mirrors..... OMGFARKINGHEARTATTACK LAH!!!!
WALAO!!!!!! IN THE GIRLS TOLIET WITHOUT LIGHTS AND FIND WORDS WRITTEN IN RED MARKER IN THE MIRROR AND THE SENIORS(GHOST) ARE INSIDE!!!! but they quite nice luh tell me where to shine the light and read the words for me. BUT STILL SCARYYYYYY!!!!!

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