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Wednesday, October 15, 20082:21 PM

Our friendship is now thread thin.....will we hang on to that last shimmer of hope that will pull us back together?

I know we had our differences, but i never thot this day would come....we had been friends since primary 1,though we weren't that close at that time.I was the kind of what i would now call nerdy-keep-to-myself little kid....always shunning myself away from the crowd,slinking into a dark corner by myself, while you were different...you had friends....a whole big group of them. And me?only a seleted few...we moved onto primary 3 and 4 and thats when we started geting closer, still remember the time when we went to escape theme park?that was my very 1st time going out with frens,1st time i took neoprint,1st time i ever had ever gone out with a boy(though i dun really appreciate you inviting him without my knowledge)In between the crushes and other stuff u were still my very good friend. Those memories will hold a special place in my heart just like u and kaising and the rest of my good frens will.
But when we went on to primary 5 u changed........alot......we started drifting apart,u with all the "paikias" and me with all the sometimes guai sometimes not ppl,u started ignoring some of our frens in primary 3 and 4, but i understand........When the year 2007 came to an end, u were promoted to 6/4 which is now our current class, i was elated becos i could be with you again,but u din sound very excited to come, u feared that all the people would ignore you,i assured you that they wouldn't and by the end of this year you will like this class, but it seems that i was wrong......very wrong....

The starting of this year you hated this class like shit, but u pressed on and made an effort to befriend your classmates.But u hated mr lee.In the middle of the year everything was good,no pressure from peers,from parents and from studies.The trip to xiamen was a memorable one,the frozen water bottles,the late night chat/gossip.How i wish we could go back in time.
But towards the ending of the middle of the year, things took a change for the very worst.... you were"depressed" becos of someone,u started hurting urself.I remembered the phone calls at nite on a daily basis....we would take for hours, each one pouring out thots and problems to the other, those were the times i would never forget. I had quarrals with my mother almost everyday and you were there to lend me a listening ear,comforting me. Although i din understand how u felt at that time,i do now.....losing a important friend for no rhyme or reason.....it really takes a heavy toll on you....

If this is the way you want it to be,i will respect your decession. Although i really dont want to end our friendship this way. You are one of the bestest friend i ever had, and i really want our friendship to be strong,contiune even when we are in secondary school, wheather we are in the same school or not....but judging by what is happening now,i doubt so....

Just in case our friendship does not work out i just wanna say Thank you for sticking with me through thick and thin and being my very good fren.I just want you to know that i treasure every single minute of our friendship,and i dont wanna end our friendship now, but i cannot control how u feel, i want you to know that you will always hold a special place in my heart that nobody can replace, and I love you Siok Hwee, lots

Lotte

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